June 6, 2013
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Unemployed Again
The job I recently started did not work out. I am not entirely surprised, as it was a totally different type of job than I am used to, and good at. The job was doing odd jobs in a warehouse, as well as loading semi trailers when needed. If I had stayed, I would probably have ended up in production, or packing. They want people who are fast workers, and I am the first to admit I am not a real fast worker.
What I am good at, and enjoy, is dealing with people. Customer service. My favorite jobs since leaving the Security Police job I held for most of my adult life have been as a cashier, taking reservations for a resort by phone and running children’s rides at an amusement park.
I am trying to look on the bright side. I have 9 days’ pay coming to me that I did not have coming to me before. I will find a job eventually, and probably one I like better, and maybe even one that pays more. I will also get past these rough personal times. Intellectually, I know that.
I have to admit, though, I am feeling a bit discouraged, in addition to the loneliness and sadness I have already been feeling. It’s hard to fight the dark thoughts that I am a burden to everybody, and that maybe it would be better for everybody if I wasn’t around at all.
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I am sorry to hear you are unemployed
I am unemployed, and also not one of the faster workers. but I am reliable.
I do have a disability, and the type I have I am limited to what I am able to do. I could not work in a kitchen because of my co-ordination, because of my back something to do with NF heavy lifting might be difficult.
My communication skills because of my speech I could not be put on reception or maybe not even on the telephone.
I do have some fantastic skills in data entry/admin with filing and photocopying
Working in a library as well would be ideal for me.
I am so,so sorry for all that you are having to go through. I know it doesn’t feel fair, or like your situation will get any better. – But IT WILL!! You have a lot of people, and a great, loving God who care about you!! Big,Big Hugs!!!
@my_final_username - Thank you for your support, and for sharing your life with me. I always say a person should not be defined by their physical limitations, or any illness or addiction they have. You are an amazing person just exactly as you are. Working in a library would be a great job for me, as well. I’ve been thinking that a lot recently. I’m sitting in the local library of the city I currently live in right now, using the free Wi-Fi service they offer. @CuddlyKat - Thanks, Kat!!! Hugs to you, also. I hope things are going well for you and your lovely daughters, and that you are happy. Like I say in this post, I do know things will get better eventually, but knowing that doesn’t always translate to feeling better right in the moment. Your friendship and support, and that offered by some other special people, helps me to get through, though.
Sorry to hear that. Hope you find something soon. I know it’s a tough job market out there
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i remain unemployed over 2 years now so i know how you feel. i feel that i am being age discriminated as no one want to hire old farts. lol
@XxrockxXxgirlxX - Yes it is.
@buddy71 - I’m 50 and feel the same way sometimes. I like to eat or get ice cream at a little place near where I am at now. I enjoy the food, but I doubt one of the employees I’ve seen is old enough to drink legally. I’d say they are from 16-18.
I totally understand how you feel…related to loneliness, sadness, discouragement, and feeling like a burden. It is perfectly normal that you feel this way right now.
BUT, it would NOT be better if you weren’t around! Please know you are needed! Please know that many of us are praying for you, we have hope for you…you WILL find another job…and I bet it will be a better one! Please hang in there!
A friend told me, (when I was going through a rough patch emotionally), “When you’re sitting in the dark, feeling all alone…just reach out…you’ll be surprise how many people are sitting right there beside you.”
So, I am saying that to you! Thank you for reaching out to us, so honestly and with such vulnerability! We are here! We do understand and we do care!
HUGS!!!
I am sorry about your job loss—-big Bummer. I sure hope you find a good one soon. Said a prayer for you.
It is good that your recognize your strengths and weaknesses to employers. it will help you focus on the right kind of job next time.
frank
I am sorry to hear about your current situation. Losing a job is never a wonderful experience. Just keep looking forward. Things can only look up from here! I was out a job for a while and shortly after getting a job I was told they were over-staffed. I quickly re-evaluated what I wanted to do and started working at an elementary school. One door closes so another door can open.
Don’t doubt your existence, everyone has a purpose. I will say a prayer you find a great job you enjoy doing. I wish you the best.
Hang in there and don’t stop believing in yourself, even when things look very bleak.
Best of luck in finding something that suits you better, and may it pay better and be more fufilling for you as well.
BTW, nothing wrong with using free library internet. I was just in there doing that today. I had only that for several years. Now I have a laptop and I can sit in McD’s or Chick-fil-a etc and just order a coke with free refills and still not have to pay for internet at home.
Believe that though there are rough patches, that there ARE good times to come for you.
Both congress and the current administration have a lot to answer for- in the time of the biggest amount of layoffs since the Great Depression , they have not been nearly as diligent in helping those displaced find work and fighting against age discrimination. They are basically letting companies practice ageism and hire younger workers on the cheap with no one to answer to.
I’m sorry that you lost your job. I understand the dark depression that rolls over when things are going against us. I’m sure you have friends and family that care for you. I want you to know when times get rough we think the world would be a better place without us, and that’s not the case. I’ve had a very rough time because I lost my mom 20 years ago to suicide and my sister ( who was the last member of my immediate family) to suicide 6 months ago. I want you to know those left behind aren’t better off. It’s a permanent solution to a temporary solution. This too shall pass. Keep your chin up.
I’ve been there… eh… be strong. Don’t give up.ItIt’s always the darkest before the sun rises.
Be strong! You’ll find something. Good luck!
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Thank you all for your support, and your words of encouragement. I do know things will get better; I just needed to vent the dark and toxic thoughts and feelings. Xanga is a great place for that, because of awesome people like yourselves.
I have so far gotten pay loaded onto my pay card for 6 days’ work, and should get pay for 3 more days’ work next Friday, so that brings my funds about back up to where they were when I first moved here almost a month ago.
That will let me go on for a while longer, and the search for a suitable job goes on.
@lonelywanderer2 - Good. Will pray that a good job will present itself in the next week or less! HUGS!!!
I hope you know a job doesn’t define a person. I got a lot of flak for staying home for a dozen years to raise a child. By the time I was ready to rejoin the work force, I don’t think they were really interested in someone older. I did find a teaching job and worked my ass off. Just when you stop looking, something presents itself! Hang tough!